tequila old fashioned

my body has a visceral reaction
every time i see you
or even think i do
my heart beats through my chest
my hands get sweaty
my stomach drops
i immediately go into fight or flight mode
and i realize now maybe i do need therapy.

it’s not like you abused me
or caused me any real harm
i knew what i got myself into
i saw your high risk warning

and then i got electrocuted.

what i wasn’t expecting is how your
absence left me paralyzed
after our friends told me
you never wanted to see me again
the most shocking thing.

my nervous system still trembles
as if i’m caught up in your storm
even though my skies are clear
i don’t need to run for cover
but don’t i?

i don’t know, i’ll ask my therapist.