these three summer months

we can't exist outside these three summer months
we tried but it was only
100° flush

june july august
if it will take me three weeks to break a habit
how much longer will it take me to stop remembering
i will be recovering from this heat stroke for the rest of the year
and hopefully winter will break my fever

these three summer months
we lived each long day as if the cold would never come
convinced we would stay ablaze through the long nights

but the sun has gone down
and i don't have your body temperature to keep me warm
rolling over in the night to reach for you only to find the wall
hoping i don't freeze as i drift back to sleep
dreaming about those three summer months.