promises kept/unkept

i always told you always
that we would be friends
and i have the bad habit of 
keeping my promises

i can’t seem to bring myself 
to ask you to bring my clothes back 
the next time you see me 
because then it would really be over 
wouldn’t it

i’m walking on eggshells 
but breaking all of them 
because i never learned how to be discreet
and control what i feel

they say to set boundaries 
as if you didn’t use each weakness
you found in my fortress to destroy me 
but i’ll build my walls back up
and bind them with oaths to myself.

from the shelf series